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May. 24th, 2008

killing spree

Of Widom and Killing Sprees

Okay, so some of you may know that I spent this entire week flailing over getting my wisdom teeth out, and being generally I scared little dork. So I fast (9 hours!) during my normal eating time so I can get the bloody teeth done, take the half-hour car-ride to Shillington....

And there's a guy in the parking lot. With a jackhammer. And the parking lot looks suspiciously new. The lights are on inside, but the doors are locked. Okay, well, we got there fifteen minutes early, because I'm a paranoid monkey.

20 minutes later, we're staring at the doors, and looking at it going--this place is so not open. So, i call the covenstead and get granny to look up the phone number in the phone book, which takes another five minutes, and I call.

The lady informs me that NO I didn't have an appointment, they hadn't scheduled appointments for this day for weeks. I got snarky, and she checks. Oh we;re sorry--it's NEXT week.

By this time I'm starving, upset, ready to kill something, and I snap at the receptionist, and then proceeded to have to go the half-hour HOME. Where I promptly had a proper breakfast and then went to bed.

So, aside from a monumental waste of gas, I get to do the nerves, fasting and car trip AGAIN next Friday. All I have to say about this is if they fuck me over again, there will be blood.

May. 4th, 2008


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Bold the books you have read, italicize books you’ve started but not finished, strike the books you read but hated, add an asterisk* to books you’ve read more than once, and underline those you own but still haven’t read yourself. I am also adding two asterisks** to the ones that I want to read/have plans to read, but that's my twin's rule, not the meme's.

Stolen from willfully

Book memeCollapse )
Conclusion? I am a dork.

Apr. 6th, 2008


Quote file

Weight loss/ED quotes, possibly disturbing and/or triggeringCollapse )

Apr. 4th, 2008


Meme! (Again)

Stolen from jairissa and willfully. Anon commenting is on (as always) and ip logging is off ( as always) but this time it actually matters. Be brutally honest, if you want, and tell me what you really think of me.

Be cruel if you want, I could probably use it.
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Apr. 3rd, 2008


Another meme

To take a little bit of lightness after my last heavy entry, a meme stolen from willfully

• Put your media player of choice on shuffle.
• List the first fifteen songs that come up (skipping titles like "Fugue in D Minor") and add "in my pants" to the end.
• Bold the ones that actually made you LOL

Well hell then, guess I need my pantsCollapse )
pretty girl

sandpaper tears corrode the film and I need you now somehow

It's been ages since I updated, I know. It's been all over. willfully came to visit, and I'm getting ready to be in a friend's wedding, which I don't think will make it that far, but...

I'm going to be going to a poetry slam next week and reading, and April 19-26th I'll be going to see Adam Pascal in concert. Sounds like everything's been fantastic, right?

Yeah, i wish. Nothing's been wrong per se, I just had a major crash, so I'm probably seeing this as far more dark than I should, but a lot of stuff just seems to be going to smash. Granny's becoming neurotic about my weight and pressuring me to get this for the wedding so all of my "lumps and rolls" don't show.

And of course, mid-crash I binged today...and now I really want to relapse. My stupid logic definitely is not helping, since you need to be under a certain BMI to be considered anorectic, and most of the physical symptoms I don't have. (The absence of at least three consecutive menstrual cycles, body weight below 85% of what is expected.) and otherwise, according to most doctors (at least around here) it's a phase. And St. Catherine of Siena was sainted because she refused to eat, it was taken to be religious at the time.

Bad idea, really bad idea, but really incredibly tempting. I am also stressing over the fact that I can't find my Neon Ballroom CD, because one can only listen to 4st. 7lb. so many times on repeat (thank Circe for Youtube). I know, bad bad bad.... Wasted is sitting on my dresser. I haven't touched it yet, but I really haven't stopped thinking about reading it again. Even a really long nap didn't help.

I so suck.

Being ED-NOS sucks. MAkign people worry about you sucks, because then you feel all guilty. Not having insurance that will cover therapy, and too scared too suggest it otherwise? REALLY REALLY sucks. Stupid major medical.

Okay, shutting up now.

Yay! I found the Youtube vid! *shares*

Feb. 3rd, 2008

stop bitching

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Myspace Stuff

Feb. 2nd, 2008


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My Valentinr - calypso13
Get your own valentinr

Someone love me?

Jan. 31st, 2008



1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ. (well, if you want to).

Jan. 28th, 2008

killing spree


So, I have a boyfriend, which I bet most of you didn't know. In fact, tomorrow would be our 3 month anniversary. I don't really count him as a boyfriend, want to know why? BECAUSE IN THREE MONTHS HE HAS KISSED ME ONCE. Kissed, not snogged, not full on make out, sweet little after-date kiss.

Now this is enough to make me tetchy in the first place, since I went through this phase of but-I-like-GIRLS-and-your-not-a-girl bit, and finally said okay, cause he's a cool bloke, and one of my best friend's cousin. (Most of my real-life friends are boys) So, no big deal, i go back to normal. Friends + boyfriend and i are out at lunch, and waitress has cute arse. I observe, he gets pissy.

Okay, no big deal, though I bitched to my internet wifey about it when walking to the Covenstead for dinner. Its not that he's gay, or finds me unattractive, since he had a raging hard-on when we went to the circuit part, and he picked me up, and unless it was the Degas, he finds me somewhat attractive.

I LET HIM TAKE ME TO AN OPERA AUDITIOn, which if any of you know how crazy I am NOT about my voice, says a lot, but he has not made move one. So he talks to his cousin about us and cousin/my best buddy says this.

Bud: It's Calypso, if you want to talk to her about your relationship, your going to have to stick The Godfather or Boondock Saints on to get her to talk about that shit with you. Or when she's watching the game.

Boyfriend: But I want it to be meaningful

Bud: It's Calypso, she'll squirm and get the fuck out of the room. You can't do that with her, you girl.

So if finding out about this exchange wasn't enough, he starts harping on my internet friends. Mostly Wifey and Evil Twin for 'letting them steal our time'. IT IS NOT STEALING OUR TIME TO TAKE A MINUTE TO REPLY TO A TEXT MESSAGE CAN'T TALK OR BUSY. There's no reason for him to be fucking jealous, as I'm sure if wifey or twin were in the same area and wanted a relationship, they would fucking MAKE A MOVE not act like whingy assholes for three months. Also, I don't want to know how he bloody knows which ringtone is Wifey's, as Twin texts me all the bloody time and even my family knows that one, but SERIOUSLY.

And I know he has a sex drive, I'm friends with his cousin, I've seen his porn stash from before we were dating, so WTF, people? Also, my writing meaning, 2,000 word Mina/Rei pr0n does not invalidate our mockery of a relationship.

In closing


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